Dear Yoon Khee,
How are you doing lately? Ever wonder why I am writing to you? Well, it's 11th November 2013 today, forty-five minutes past twelve midnight and I got so demotivated and emotional. I needed someone to listen to me. I know people hate listening to rants but perhaps a thin chance for me to release some stress and emotions? At least someone would have read it and console me a little?
Thanks for being such a pal to me. It's been a while, since I last felt miserable and demotivated. Today, things have gotten so dumb that I tend to fall into this "emotional" period where I just feel like crying.
I do not know how to describe this feelings but it's so complicated that you do not even know why is this dumb feeling is coming back after all you've buried it deep down somewhere. Remember a few months ago? Yea, you know? That few months where you cried almost every night because you faced so much stress, so much that you wanted to leave the house and just be a homeless?
Well, things weren't easy. I tried bringing myself back from misery. I found hope. I tried and well, it's not easy but I'll keep going.
Through the "happy" and "hopeful" times I consider, people around me have been so nice and gave me certain offers. I bet it was so overwhelming and so I was so excited. Then it came, some really not going your way. You have to climb so hard to reach there. Lots of promises and offers, sometimes disappointment. Why does this feeling must be like some sort of "life cycle"? Is it a must where you try to scale your journey to your dream? I am not sure but I can definitely say, life is not easy, we'll just have to promise to give the best to ourselves.
Please remind me to love myself more and to help myself in achieving what I am aiming for, go for my dreams. If nobody appreciates you, you'll have to appreciate yourself more. Wipe off your tears now and keep going. You will have to look for opportunities yourself instead my dear.
Take Care.
Love,
Myself
